To think and to be fully alive are the same.

Hannah Arendt

  • Self-Love and Omnipotency

    Here we go again. I can’t hear these platitudes anymore: ‘Love Myself’ and ‘I Can Do Anything.’ I’ve been told to recite those phrases to myself. To strengthen my insecurities. I was told friendship wouldn’t come until I loved myself. To no avail.

  • But we can dance with them! – Complexity and Models

    A model of reality that tells us how reality works is a false idol. Daniel Schmachtenberger As you might know, I am a Spiral Dynamics practitioner, CliftonStrengths coach, and Christian. I value all three views on the world, be it evolutionary psychology, positive psychology, or the biblical narrative. And still, I would never say that…

  • The End of a World

    Have you ever wondered why the Bible uses the word “kosmos” to express what we call “world“? Well, maybe the more exciting way to pose the question is to look at what we use today’s word “kosmos” for. It is used to name the universe. Dah. But then there is “cosmetics.” What does it mean?…

  • Arborescent or Rhizomatic Structures

    For centuries, we have looked at the New and the Old Testaments and have defined our doctrine and church structures based on our understanding of what we read. We did not realize how much our own worldview skewed our understanding. We all live in a hierarchical world. We had no experience with non-hierarchical systems, and…

  • Easter

    If we were blunt enough, it is about us as gods with him.

  • Is Thinking a Lack of Trust

    Have people ever told you that you overthink? In most environments, this translates to people wanting you to ease up and be more chill, less analytical, and less demanding. Church often adds another dimension to this thought pattern. To overthink is to question and thus lack trust. Or it is to worry and invite the…

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