To think and to be fully alive are the same.

Hannah Arendt

  • How to help with inner work

    The heart’s real intentions are like deep water;but a person with discernment draws them out. Pro 20:5 When we look at the time the Bible was written, there was no notion of inner work. Though the Bible is talking about the soul, it is only in the last century or so that humanity developed an…

  • Existential Competency

    Is that even allowed to be said today? There are actually people who are intellectually highly gifted. This goes so far that these people not only think more and faster than the average, but in a profoundly different way. How different is very difficult to describe because not all highly gifted people think the same…

  • My Diagnosis of Autism

    I was diagnosed with autism about a year ago, which freed me up quite a bit. Many things fell in place, and I understood some of my shortcomings and challenges throughout my history much better. Let me explain: I think that I am in the midst of the largest positive disintegration I experienced in my…

  • A Plan for Change

    Let me tell you something: I am not a pastor, I am more of a teacher, and I tend to teach the 100% solution, knowing full well that it does not seem to be applicable to pastors. To me, it does, and the only way to prove me wrong is if you implement my solution…

  • Catch 22

    I had just been formed and exhaled my first-ever breath from what I later would call my nose. My father had filled me with life, breathing in his spirit, his breath into me. We sat together in a place called Atziluth. We that is En Sof and me. Looking from where I am now, it…

  • Spiritual Man’s Perspective

    But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned. But he that is spiritual — judgeth all things, yet he himself is judged of no man. For who hath known the mind of the Lord,…

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