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  • What the Bible is for me: the Starting Point

    For many, the Bible is the dictated word of God. Every word meaningful, every verse significant, every chapter pregnant. Literally. I myself have made a journey in recent years and discovered many new facets of exactly this Bible, indeed developed a new understanding for it. This journey, this changing perception in reading the Bible and […]

Seek not the paths of the ancients; seek that which the ancients sought.

Matsuo Basho

  • Dare to Sacrifice your Future

    The Centrifugal Power of Jesus’ Example Christianity believes that the world is divinely created, but has faulted to meet its purpose. I would put this very differently. Everything is created with a purpose, and we (and by that, I mean the individual, humanity as a whole, and the universe) are on a journey into our […]

  • Why the Fall?

    I ask myself why we keep calling the Fall “the Fall”. I for a long time thought that I have to call it so, as it seemed to be the correct term to easily have people know what I am talking about. Now I believe that it just evokes bad associations. It somehow demands seeing […]

  • How to help with inner work

    The heart’s real intentions are like deep water;but a person with discernment draws them out. Pro 20:5 When we look at the time the Bible was written, there was no notion of inner work. Though the Bible is talking about the soul, it is only in the last century or so that humanity developed an […]

  • Existential Competency

    Is that even allowed to be said today? There are actually people who are intellectually highly gifted. This goes so far that these people not only think more and faster than the average, but in a profoundly different way. How different is very difficult to describe because not all highly gifted people think the same […]

  • My Diagnosis of Autism

    I was diagnosed with autism about a year ago, which freed me up quite a bit. Many things fell in place, and I understood some of my shortcomings and challenges throughout my history much better. Let me explain: I think that I am in the midst of the largest positive disintegration I experienced in my […]

  • A Plan for Change

    Let me tell you something: I am not a pastor, I am more of a teacher, and I tend to teach the 100% solution, knowing full well that it does not seem to be applicable to pastors. To me, it does, and the only way to prove me wrong is if you implement my solution […]

Faith in God’s revelation has nothing to do with an ideology which glorifies the status quo.

Karl Barth

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