To think and to be fully alive are the same.

Hannah Arendt

  • Catch 22

    I had just been formed and exhaled my first-ever breath from what I later would call my nose. My father had filled me with life, breathing in his spirit, his breath into me. We sat together in a place called Atziluth. We that is En Sof and me. Looking from where I am now, it…

  • Spiritual Man’s Perspective

    But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned. But he that is spiritual — judgeth all things, yet he himself is judged of no man. For who hath known the mind of the Lord,…

  • Writing and Publishing a Book as a Private Person

    I am neuroatypical, introverted, INTP, and an Enneagram 5. That means I am a very private person. For years, I had the idea of writing a book. With all I experienced during the last five years, I knew that others would profit from my experience and counsel. But my biggest questions remained: “How do I…

  • Imprinting and existential Competency

    Einstein and von Neumann had nannies who were excellent in mathematics. Therefore, both men had already internalized specific thinking patterns when they entered kindergarten. Einstein did not have it easy in standard school lessons because he was under-challenged by average teachers and simple thinking patterns. His grades, however, were excellent-except in French, which I can…

  • Highly gifted and Christian

    Yes, highly gifted people exist, and they can even have a relationship with God. But didn’t the Bible say this about them? Where are the wise men, the scribes, the brilliant orators? God has made fools of them and exposed their wisdom as useless nonsense. (1 Corinthians 1:20) Where are the sophos, graphos, and suzetetes?…

  • What I believe- a snapshot

    God is in everything and everything is in God, nothing exists outside of God, but God is so much more than everything. God has three faces. There is the eternal IT, far outside our understanding. But God also meets us as the personable YOU and manifests in us as the divine I. Christianity has developed…

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